My life has taken two distinctly different paths, it has been a challenge to sort out what I really believe and want to create while I am here. I spent a big portion of my life overly concerned about other peoples opinions of me and pleasing them. If you've had experience with this you will understand the complete and total discontentment that lies underneath that behavior.
In my twenties and into my early thirties, I wanted to be recognized and respected for my accomplishments. Graciously, life provided this experience for me and as it happens,similar types of people with similar types of attitudes began to show up and validate my wish. But then I started to realize, these "goals" were hollow, I was hollow and so were the people I was attracting.
So I started on a new journey to change this perspective and find a deeper and more meaningful way to live. Some of the people dropped of my radar (and I am sure I dropped off of theirs) but I was still focused on "finding" happiness. Life wasn't about the moment to moment experience for me. ( Well unless of course I had arrived at that place I thought would provide the elusive happy feelings I was searching for, only to be sorely disappointed when the moment passed and life moved onto different things once again.)
Now it seems, the world is shifting in consciousness (at least my world is!) and as I continue to transform, the ideas and things that seemed to hold much importance to me also seems to shift and transform. Sadly, what I have also noticed is that this type of "when I arrive" thinking, is an epidemic. Its the majority thinking.
So it's happening once again, that as I continue on my path, the people around me begin to shift. This is a little scary for me as my current relationships transform or fade away...but I am also learning to build relationships with new and more like minded people as they seem to be more attracted to me and me to them.
