Totally Magic

I have never been so pleasantly surprised by anything in my life...and I had an awakening of sorts this weekend.

This weekend someone I haven't seen or spoken to in sixteen years came to visit me. We have a very colorful past and lots of significant events have happened to shape our lives as a result of our past relationship.

I knew it would not be easy to see this person, but felt like it needed to be done anyway. So...I did the best I could to stay open, honest and willing to have this experience. I am so glad I did.

What I expected to happen didn't come to fruition and I couldn't have imagined what did happen if I had tried to. I was completely surprised and so grateful to be able to stay in the moment. I felt present and willing to hear what was being said and see what was being done without any preconceived notions getting in my way. I felt the full spectrum of emotions as old information was expressed and released, and while it was very draining at times, it was also extremely fulfilling.

This experience has opened my eyes to who I was, what I have lost, and what I have gained. It has given me hope for the future, increased my faith, and opened my heart.

And once again this confirms for me that the only way out of fear is to walk straight though it.