A Walking Contradiction

Someone very close to me made the statement today that I am a walking contradiction...
At first my reaction was defensive and my feelings were hurt. I wanted to get lost in the anger and frustration of the comment and take it out on the person who said it.

I started to do this but then I remembered something I read a little while ago in "The Darkside fo the Light Chasers" by Debbie Ford. She said something like this...If my reaction to what is being said about me is intense, look to see if there may be some truth in what is being said; and to the degree I react to it, may be the degree that I am denying its there.

Turns out she was right. There are some things in my life that I would like to tell myself that I have under control or a greater understanding of, than I do.

This experience has brought to my awareness the idea that it takes hearing and really listening to the ones we love to get through some of the illusions we try to present to ourselves.
I don't know yet specifically what new understanding will come of this, but I am sure more will be revealed and I am truly grateful that -while it was a little bit of a struggle- I was able to open my mind up enough to the opportunity to understand myself a little better and change if needed.

So to this friend of mine, I want to say thank you for helping me to understand myself a little better and for your patient understanding.