A very close friend of mine hates it when I use the word Karma but she is the first one to say "Be careful... that's gonna come back around and bite you in the ass"...Same thing, right?
I am a firm believer in Karma and have had a healthy dose of my own accumulation of it "coming back around', as of late.
I am actually glad I can recognize it for what it is now...I couldn't before and thought what was happening to me was a complete injustice. I have been battling with anger, sadness, resentment while groping for acceptance through prayer and meditation. It didn't seem to me that I was getting anywhere with all of it.
This afternoon I was driving to meet a group of friends and I started thinking about someone I hadn't thought of in a long time. This was someone I treated really poorly about 7 or so years ago, and have not been able to get back in touch with. I had an overwhelming feeling of remorse and a strong desire to take back my actions and make them right. Then a similar situation came to mind that had happened many years prior to that one with another person, and after that another person came to mind... I started to really feel for these other people in a way I hadn't felt before.
That is when I realized that what I am currently going through is a direct result of those previous actions.
Since I have been unable to actually make a formal amends to these people (and believe me I would if I could and will if I ever get the opportunity) I feel the experience that I am going through is simply, Karma. It's not an injustice I am experiencing it's actually Universal justice. What goes around comes around.
Somehow this makes it much easier to accept what I am going through and I am actually grateful to be paying off the debt. As for my actions these days...lets just say I am much more mindful of the way I treat other people and I hope things are finally balancing out, Karmic-ly speaking.
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I believe in karma. I do. I also believe in prayer. At my new job there is a small group of people that start their day with a "devotion". This is a true Christian devoation and I was skeptical at first. But I like it. I take what I want, you know? There is a lesson in each reading. Today the lesson was about how laughter is the best medicine and somewhere in the Bible it says that a warm heart or a happy heart or something is good for the soul. I can't remember but the reading was about laughing. I loved it. After the reading a few people said that it is devastating to laugh at other people in a mean way - to put them down. It catches you off guard because it is all fun and games and then someone gets hurt (or really angry and vengeful). Then they said that laughing at ourselves can be a great release. Someonw actually said that if we don't take ourselves so seriosly we'd laugh more. She was referring to the role of a nurse and how it can be very stressful to walk on the evening shift with admits and discharges and upset family members and the like. But I heard, don't take my mistakes so seriously - laugh them off and learn from them. I am such a hard ass and can be so hard on myself. My own worst critic for everything - I should have said this or I should have done that. Instead I could just smile and remember I am on the path to go where I'm going. I'm still here whether I kick and scream at myself or not - still here. Anyway that has almost nothing to do with karma - which I do believe in very much and I like the idea of pay it forward - but it was a great way to start my day today.
Hope you're feeling better Gabi.
Sadie
Interesting..Karma is. On the one hand, we understand it and then on another we start to live it. I find that deep down there is an undying karma that knows all actions are somehow towards gaining unity throughout the universe. I think it is quite important to acknowledge that a human, benath all of their flaws faux pas, they desire peace among all things. WE seem to constantly wish for glory and freedom for all enitities! We know benath all of it, who we are and we are true. So THE Karma is undefinable, for it is the thread of our actions. It seems in life we just haven't quite got the knack of it yet, at least fully and completely. Every moment is a step closer. Every moment is one more stride each has made on his/her quest to unite all. Such is the way of Karma. Seems to me, it in itself is good karma. It does one good to have karma, it is to be embraced. We are not failing, only learning, by way of karma
Sweet G, I believe that the remorse you felt in the car surrounding people you've treated poorly in the past is like the "life review" people describe when they are dying. I think we can be in denial about our actions for a time, but eventually we have to feel the energy that we've put out there. It does indeed seem that balance is forthcoming!!!
L, K
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