Constant Prayer

There are some of us who are born into this life with a very strong sense of purpose; a desire or hope that what we do in life will matter and make a difference. That however does not mean we will actually do anything at all with our lives...

There are so many obstacles in the way for some of us, despite our desire. Without the proper support as children and guidance as young adults many of us can become depressed, discouraged and lost.
Personally, I came into the world this way and ended up just the way I described at the mere age of 28.

Without direction, support, and encouragement, dreams can get muddled and we end up living lives that belong to other people in an effort to find something that fits...

Usually that is where rock bottom comes in for most of these types of personalities. At the end of their rope, their only choices seem to be to step off the chair, or pray.

Thank God I prayed.

I would love to say there was a great shining white light that scooped me up in all encompassing joy and handed me a list of all the things that I was to do next to ensure my life was fulfilling and I am content here...
Ya....no. That didn't happen. But I did find relief from my fears and my unhappiness, and I became open to letting people give the support and guidance I had been neglected as a child.

Over time I have learned that the guidance is within me. I have to meditate, listen very close in silence to what is behind it and that is where I will find the answers.

Having had 28 years to practice a different way of operating, this new idea seemed difficult and too slow....but practice makes progress and year after year I keep trying and I don't give up.

It is becoming clearer to me now, that voice within, and much easier to access.
Now when I feel off coarse or unsure I know what to do to get help and to find direction.
The new challenge for me is in actually doing it.