We all get caught up in wanting to be a little better, a little more or somehow different than we are. We get stuck trying to change what we already have in the hopes of one day it will be enough to "get where we want to be".
This is an illusion.
What if all of this is simply a reoccurring thought pattern that goes round and round like a broken record, in order to give our minds something to do?
The mind is a tool and when we set it to auto-pilot, it will simply play old ideas over and over again because it has to do something, it never stops. Think about it. It takes an incredible amount of discipline to meditate and quiet the mind even for a moment. The mind is always talking and we are always listening to it, even when we are not aware that we are listening.
So what exactly are we listening to? That is a great place to start. What goes around in your head? What are you telling yourself? I'm fat and lazy? I'm fabulous and hyper? The thoughts themselves don't really matter much except to identify a pattern so we can see where we are lying to ourselves.
If you look at the thought in the moment, it is no longer true for that moment. For the majoity of us, it's an old thought, based on an old situation and an old judgment that you or someone else made about you, that you bought into and are selling over and over to yourself on a regular basis. Ya, take a moment and let that sink in.
We are dynamic beings and it is impossible to be the exact same person in this moment as we were in the last, unless we make it our goal to be that way. Now, if we have the option to create our experience in the moment why then do we choose the old tape? There has to be a reason.
So, what's your reason? Who are you proving wrong? Or right for that matter. What are you trying to justify? If you look hard you will find all your precious energy is being wasted on yep, an illusion. An illusion say for example, that you are somehow the same person you were when you were 5yrs old and your mom walked out on your family. The same small child that told themselves not to trust and get close to women because they will all leave. If we look at the life of that now grown adult I would be willing to bet there are no significant relationships with women they fully trust. So now this adult is still living with the opinion of a perception of a 5 yr old child. By the way, we all do this.
On the flip side of this though, once this idea is identified as simply a story that applied to one woman when this person was 5 yrs old and not the rest of the entire female population; that leaves space or a void now to create whatever kind of relationship you like. Now that there is nothing, anything is possible. And the experience simply becomes a new moment to create what you want.
Of course we don't know this is happening or we would stop right? Right. So start listening. What old ideas are you telling yourself. Is that idea happening right now? Probably it is to some extent because we have to make our stories true. So we create the same situation over and over again...Stop believing the old tape has any value now and you will be free to create a new experience in each and every moment.
4 comments:
Well, Well, Well...YOU are finally back...I've been eagerly waiting. It's almost been 2 months. Good blogs do not deserve to go unattended, GABI, hehe..NO worries, though I know how the life can go into kahutz & all.
New perspective eh? NO more change, some change, or have you just gone off into the ethereal realms, where you can take "the lazy river" of the stream of higher conscioussness! (btw I'm not saying your lazy, but at the amusements parks they just call it the the lazy river, 'tis an analogy, lol)
IN the higher realms, you would be correct, there is absolutely no change, everything just "is." But what could that mean, I think it is the anamoly, the undefined, the unexplainable, the life force, etc...so when I think of us as divided entities, well in my book, I consider each & every one an enigma. But what about the physcial world, everything seems to be changing, so fast you can't even grasp it for a moment's gaze. What about all the things that give one joy, is it the joy or is it the things, or rather experiences or people that truly matter...I have long debated this & I have come to only one viable conclusion. Everything is as important as the next whether tangible or ineffable. All the realms, plateaus, universes, dimensions and so forth must be intracately connected, a WHOLE BEING. All drawn from an essential source. This realization/philosophy, when embraced, has led me to a path of immense gratitude, b/c then every bit of life matters. Sometimes my feelings can be so strong, and I know that in that moment they are there with reason, higher purpose, and help me fulfill everything on my path...I sometimes feel for it all. What emerges is so palpable that I am certain it is authentic, in the sense of destiny anyways.
Other times, I feel disciplined to refine myself, but not so much to make me happy...although I know where you come from, b/c I still struggle in some areas to a degree. But sometimes I yearn to push forward not for the result, but for the rush of the drive itself. It's as if I pour my feelings into a kiln to forge my arsenal of love. Every ounce I give only douses me more with the effervescent tonic. I dream on & on, only to find myself materialized again in my waking state... Somewhere, inside, unfathomable power lies. I suppose the only passage rests here & now.
Living is strange, being is even far more peciluar. So many ranging states. I can feel noble in the glory of the light, other times dispicable malice coarses through me like a virus overthrows the nucleus of the cell to take operational command, then there's apathy, then there is just pure unadulterated joy, innocence & bliss, pure enjoyment of life itself. Sometimes I catch myself just tuning it out...Then I might call myself crazy for going round & round...but I guess that's what in store on this grand soul journey. I agree that it's difficult to even begin meditation, but the jewel that is endowed from such a practice I know surely to be the most extravagent of all. I have had glimpses, I know that it not only ties it all together but melds all of it, whatever "it" all is, into a beautiful concoction, and brings elegance, wisdom, & serenity to the potionmaster.
With that being said, here's to being inebriated! ; )
Love & peace
-well I think you know who I am, it's soooo obvious, hahaha
namaste
So true Gabi and a great description of what sounds like a powerful experience. Book?
L, K
Yes there is a book, The three Laws of Perfomance...I have just started it so I don't know how closely it mirrors the Forum but will let you know.
love love
Sean you are awesome :) I am so glad you are staying in communication this way...I think you have understood this one correctly...moment to moment things seem to "change" the hand on the clock etc..but I am talking about consciousness as you said so....there you go!
Love Love Love to you my friend!
xo
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